I know what I want in life now.

I just want to draw and doodle all day, everyday. I want to be an illustrator. I want to learn everything there is to learn about drawing and sketching and all that. I want to be able to express feelings and a whole lot more on paper, canvas, or maybe even digital art if given the chance. But whyyyyyyy? Why must I be hindered with financial obstacles. I can never afford to even buy myself good markers or paints or paper. I settle for what I have but I feel that it’s never enough. I want to explore the world of art and doodling. Why don’t I have the opportunity and means? It’s just not fair sometimes. 😦

Those conversations #3

Z : If you were to change one thing about me, what would it be?
Me : Too much ego… but then again, you’re fine the way you are…
Z : Ego is confidence.
Me : I know, but TOO much of it can be a bad thing too… but not with you though, you’re okay with that ego of yours, suits you well.
Z : Cause I can actually back up my ‘ego’
Me : Mhm… Oh and if you were to change a thing about me, what would it be?
Z : You not being with me. Alright, with all seriousness now, probably the fact that you play things too safe sometimes, that you don’t want to get in there and realize what’s on the other side of ‘relationships’, but then again, I like you this way.
Me : What’s on the other side of ‘relationships’?… meaning, you think I’m afraid of those stuff that’s why I play things too safe?
Z : It’s just that you don’t really want to get into those things but like I said, I like you better this way cause I feel like you know what you want.
Me : Okay, why thank you… and you’ve asked me this before but I haven’t.. so what are the things you like about me?
Z : Well, aside from your countless of ways of making me feel bad. Well you’re intelligent, simple minded and easy to get along with. I can talk to you about anything and you’re caring, sweet and thoughtful. Also, you’re trust worthy.
Me : Making you feel bad is one of the things you like about me? Well that’s new.

HAHAHAHA :))